Dude! Well I've been back for a while now. Yeah... *sigh* and it's been... well it's been umm... interestingly crappy. So like I have a girlfriend and her mom forbids her to see me because I'm a minor and then again we both think she's like homophobic and stuff. Well her parents have been gone a few nights so I stayed the night. ^_^ yeah...
So like I have nothing to do... I'm not going to summer school. Which is totally lame! But whatever. stare
I did something bad... like on a scale of 1 to 10, 1 being a simple lie to 10 being murder, it was a 5 which is like bad on my part. Like you know that song "Scottie doesn't know" well yeah... it's like that and I'm the girl... well not that bad, I mean I'm still a virgin. xp blah! I can't explain this perfectly without telling the whole truth. I should though... but maybe not online. Well any way I feel horrible and I haven't had time to talk to any one of my friends alone yet.
And like I love my girlfriend, but I don't think I've fallen in love with her. I'm forcing myself to though so maybe I can forget some things I really need to, before I totally go insane. I've been hurting for soo long and the wound that I've tried to heal keeps getting thrashed open again. And it only has to be one moment and one memory and I feel like falling into darkness and never returning.
Yes, well I feel crappy and alone with feeble inspiration and everything is mentally tearing me to peices to my breaking point. There are few things attaching me to this world and the biggest one is hope. I hate life and I feel pathetic.
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