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Dear Love,

I hate the way you smile at him
Like he's your everything
I hate the way he makes you feel
So perfect once again.

I hate the times you spend with him
And how he makes you laugh
I hate how these thoughts kill me
Of how I wish that was me.

I hate it when I wake up
From a dream so full of you
I hate it when it's clearly shown
You're not really mine.

I hate it that he's yours
I hate it that i'm not
I hate it that you don't notice me
That I'll always be alone

I hate it when I cry
I hate feeling like this
I hate YOU for doing this to me
I hate ME for letting you.

I hate HIM for being yours
I hate EVERYONE for not being there
I hate life the way it is
I hate EVERYTHING

I hate how you're so perfect
In everything you do
I hate how you're apart of me
When no one else could be

I hate how i let you in
When i wouldn't no one else
I hate how i feel betrayed
I hate how I bleed.

I hate how I know
I'll never be good enough
I hate what you say
About the darkness we both share.

I hate you the way you are
I hate how you look
I hate the way you walk and laugh
The way your words heal me.

I hate how your eyes shine
I hate it when you smile
I hate it when you sing
I hate everything about you.

I hate that i wrote this
In hopes that you would read
I hate how I keep standing here
Waiting to calm your fears.

I hate how I thought
This would make a difference
I hate how you don't even know
I hate how i hate you.

I hate that i'm saying goodbye
That I won't see you again
I hate how it ends like this
And still I hate YOU.

Oh.. and by the way...

P.S- i love you