You've probably been through one too many rough times in your life which has eaten you up from the inside. Now there's nothing more to eat from since you just don't care anymore. Life is meaningless and you live it like a zombie. The good thing though is that you cant be hurt, since you are so distant from the emotional world. Love is something you dont understand or just dont remember. If it was up to you, your life would already be over, but it doesn't make you suicidal. You are probably alone most of the time, looking at the world with a blank stare. The yearning to feel alive and be happy has simply gone away. What's left now is only the shell of what used to be you.
You are living through a lot of pain everyday that you have to deal with, which is making you sorrowful. No one ever stays by your side when you truly need them and no one ever will. Everything is hopeless and tragic and you keep yearning for the day you will be free from pain. Love is unlikely to happen to you because you isolate yourself and are suspicious of peoples motives. You stand in the shadows of the world, watching what you can never have. The bruises you carry never seems to heal, your mind is dark and no one seems to understand or wants to help. As always, you will be alone in the world, fighting your dark thoughts by yourself.
You live life like its all a fun game. You don't like to take things seriously which is both good and bad. Due to your fun loving nature you don't like steady boyfriends that much. They come and go, and you simply aren't ready for your true love to come just yet. Generally you are a good friend who can cheer up those in need of it and are fun to hang out with. You hate feeling sad yourself and avoid it the best you can. Parties and social gatherings are your things, whether it be in small or large groups of people. It is no surprise that you are well-liked among your peers.
That is the driving feeling you have in your life right now. Someone fooled/betrayed you really bad and now you are after them to make them pay. Your heart and mind has been blackened by your hate for this person and it's on the line obsession. You need to let go, but that is something you just are incapable of doing. Betrayal is something you don't take very lightly and you can easily make new enemies. People often see you as a cold and harsh person who may be in need of anger management, but they don't know what you're going through and can't understand. On the bright side; you don't give up that easy when you've decided to do something. Hopefully you will have your revenge, if it is within reason, and get your honour and dignity back.
Other people are your concern, even if you don't know them. If you see a person trip you worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones first and you're very mature. When someones sick you're nurturing and always try to help family and friends when failure strikes them. You can be called the motherly one, if you are in a group of people, which doesn't have to be bad. Love is something that's already in you and you have a lot to give whether you believe it or not. Your friends probably love you very much and come to when they need help since you're reliable. People can feel secure with you and generally like you.
