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Why does life suck so much...
Jeremy and I haven't gotten much time to talk at all lately...
And when we do, one of us has been really really pissed off and ends up taking it out on the other...
Why do relationships have to buggin' suck this much...?
I need him, but we're drifting... Jeremy I know you're going to read this and I feel that it is true... And I don't know what to do about it and it scares me.
I'm scared about us drifting, and I'm scared that I never know what to say to you...
I feel like I've failed you, us, and everyone - everyone that we've told that we'll last forever.
I know that you love me, but loving me doesn't make things all better any more... I know that it used to when we first started dating... I don't know what changed, but something has- I didn't want it to but something that I can't even put my finger on changed...
Not how I feel for you but something else...
I hope for both of us this will go away when we're in the same city for 10 months of the year, but I know that if we just leave this be and don't talk whatever this is out then it will pull us apart... I need to talk to Chuck about this... I don't know who else to talk to...
Just remember that I love you more than everything else. That has not changed, it never will.