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As ive been slowly discovering, i have to be one of the most ******** up human beings on this planet. I have so much internal struggle Its not even funny. Its like everything is a pull between my heart and my morals. I feel like i hold myself back, becuase i care to much about what other people think, and i care too much, about how people will think of me if i do something. Theres so many different things I know i have to do, but cant bring myself to do them. I have some issues I have to work out with myself before i Can Deal with my problems with other people. I need to beat some sense back into myself. I have so much frustration, Emotional or otherwise... Its ******** rediculous. I just want to smash my ******** face into the cement sometimes, It seems a fair release for what i go through. At least i finnaly had enough balls to stand up and tell my mom that Dave cant live at the house anymore. I think i would have done something stupid if i hadnt of done that. At least I got some of that anger out in that punch (Wich dave likes to remind me is going to be a perminent scar on his face and mind XD) That relieved the tension until he moves out. But i cant help thinking that ill miss him, even though he drove me through the ******** roof. Hes probably one of the funniest people ive ever met, and He shares my love of video games. But Im still sure the bad outweighs the good. And it will feel strange once hes gone.... gah i dont know!!!! THIS IS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!!! domokun domokun domokun domokun