So I was searching through Tim's wallpapers on his user and stumbled on an unnamed folder, I was curious so I opened it and what I found has had me extremely upset since before his shift even started. I found pictures of this girl...the first one was a normal picture which made me wonder but then I went on to find provocative poses of her in her underwear then just random pictures of I think is the same girl with friends and then her naked...Now I know he looks at porn, we both do but this is different. When it's pictures of her that look like myspace pictures of herself and her friends...that's when it gets me really upset. I know he's a very good guy and says he'd never cheat but this makes me wonder...who is she? I cried and got so upset I had to leave. I went driving and took our puppy to petsmart. I was doing fine, focusing on eating homework and tv until just a few minutes ago. I can't get this horrible feeling out of my stomach. I don't mind him looking at porn but when it's such personal pictures I have a problem. I don't even get to talk to him about it until after 7 am when he gets off work...that's 10 HOURS!!! He said he'll call if he gets the chance but I don't know if I want to talk to him just because I don't know how I will talk and I know he can't talk about it to me then and I don't need him getting distracted but I have to know. I want to ask him but it's kind of like snooping and I don't know how he'll take it, I wasn't spying but I don't want to cause a fight...but this really bothers me. I can't concentrate...I don't want to lose him, I'm scared of losing him. I don't know what to do!!! I just had to get this off my chest since I have no friends here, no where to go and no one will call me back!
 sprightly2 · Sat Feb 23, 2008 @ 02:42am · 0 Comments |
