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I walk around day by day and its all the same to me:
The guys and girls will meet each other, but they never seem to consider;
There is a meaning to love that I find this generation does not understand.
Love to the kids I see is dating, or even worse sexual contact.
Does anyone ever feel fulfilled in the end? No.
I can tell you from my own experience that dating never fulfilled me.
I didn't feel "love" and the guys always turned out to be players.
Of coarse some of you will say "Thats your problem but not mine".
Oh you can say that for now, but you never know what the future is going to be like.
When I go on the gaia world I see the same thing:
1) Cyber sex that only lasts very shortly,
2) Broken hearts,
3) Dating that lasts only for a week or less, and
4) Loneliness.
You say "Why do you go there then if its always the same?"
I'll tell you why. I have a job.
My job requires kindness, understanding, patience, and wisdom.
My job is to bring hope to those whose light has gone out.
My job is something I enjoy to do, because I find real friends.
My job is just being who I am, a Christian.
I want to lift people up when they fall, and comfort those who are hurting.
My job is never easy, but its worth while to see the happiness in a renewed heart.
Everyone makes mistakes, and I've had plenty of them so I'm not perfect.
I never hate people, because I was taught that we are all alike as humans, but I must hate sin for it corrupts the soul.
My middle school experience was a blow to my faith in Christ, because I had done everything under the sun that was against God's will for me.
My mistakes though matured me, and I have come to be able to use my mistakes to benefit others.
So what is love then? Well What do you want the most? We all know what we want:
We want someone to love us for who we are,
someone one to comfort us when we hurt,
someone who is humorous and kind,
someone loyal and truthful;
A person who wants to live with me,
a person who will respect and understand me,
and a person who is wise and forgiving.
So what is love then? Well if you summarize all those requirements in a relationship what do you get? A permanent Lifetime commitment: Marriage.
However I know that most of you don't want to wait. You can't stand going to the prom or dances alone. The temptation of a cute guy asking you out is too much! You won't be cool if you don't have a boy/girlfriend. Really? I beg to differ. I was like any other popular girl in middle school. I had the looks, the friends, the money, the music, the clothes , everything! Or so I thought. Girls you can't twirl your little tail for every guy with a cute butte that walks down your path. Guys you can't play around with a girl's heart forever.
So what happened to me? How did I change? I found it. You ask "Found what?"
You know. You've felt it all your life. You felt it at your first graduation, your first prize at a fair, or your first slumber party at home. I found happiness. A joy that fills the soul to the brim. You say "Yeah its that Jesus crap isn't it?" Let me ask you this: If you believe Jesus Christ the Son of the Living God is a bunch of crap then why is it that the people who follow that faith completely with all their heart had their life change so greatly?
I can tell you why, because I experienced it too late one night in my bedroom. It works. God is the biggest debate that is known to man. Why? No one wants to be controlled. Everyone wants to be their own boss. Haven't you ever heard the saying "I am always on my mind." God is real. You say "I don't believe it if I can't see it." People have seen Him. People just don't like to admit that thats true. I've heard Him, and people think I'm a crack-head for saying that. My life stunk so bad when I was 10, because I had a Bi-polar mom who abused me and my family. I was tortured physically by her. I have scars from her that won't go away. I tried to commit suicide twice! You're saying right now "Yep she's one of those drug obsessive, and depressed freaks who take counseling." I'm not. I don't take pills. I've never done drugs in my life. I hate the very smell of cigarettes, and I don't take counseling. Why? I'm not crazy. My life changed. I'm happy with my life now, and I'm loved by someone who is willing to die for me. I'm in shape, I have real friends, I'm home-schooled, and love to draw fantasy. I play volleyball, and love to swim. I'm a tomboy, I'm blonde, blue-eyed, and fair-skinned. Do I sound like a psycho to you? I hope not, because that's not who I am. So what made me want to change my life? I saw what a horrible person I was. I saw what future I had, and I wasn't happy with it.
Are you happy with your life? Do you know for certain that you will be fulfilled in life? If money is what your thinking about right now you've missed what I've tried to tell you. The world's view of success is wrong. celebrities tell you exactly how they feel about being famous and wealthy. What good is money, power, and possessions if they do not benefit you, others, or are taken in the after life? That burning anger of wanting to give an answer is from doubt. You've been taught something in school that has just been challenged. Relax, because I'm not trying to attack you. Instead I'm only telling you an important discovery. Test it yourself and see how it works. Remember I'm trying to be a positive person(which is always hard to do) so don't worry.
 Pirotess the Drow  destiny6664586 · Sun Mar 02, 2008 @ 10:44pm · 2 Comments |
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