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Confessions of a Teenage Jerkface.
I'm in a horrible mood, so foul language may be present. :D
I'm going to just say whatever's on my mind. Everything I need to say, is going to be said here.
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Okay, so, first things first. I have a question to ask you, and for you to think about.
How old do you think I am? Hm?
I've made myself out to be older than I am, and I was afraid to stop because I feared I would lose some of my friends on here. But I can't lie anymore, because that's just dumb. It all started when I was a dumb sixth grader that wanted to be cooler, and I made a ton of friends and it was all a big chain of friendship and me fearing that everyone would find out and hate me!
Hate me if you wish, but I'm still the same person I was before.
Now I have the courage. I need to get it out.
And there are a couple of things I've lied about, really.
Hello. My name is Heather Kristeen, or known more by Kristi actually, and I am currently 16 years of age. I am a sophomore at a high school here in Florida.
Yeah, yeah. be mad at me if you wish. I don't talk to 99% of you on here anymore, so... -shrug- I dunno. But I'm still the same person. Those are the only things I've lied about, nothing else. There are a few of you I know will be pissed, and I'm sorry I had been lying to you guys. i don't want to lose your friendship, but I know I pretty much betrayed all of you, so I understand if you no longer want my friendship.
Well that's the only confession I have to make... so. Now I guess I'll just jabber on about random s**t.
Well. Last month I competed in a District Thespian Competition, which has to do with Theatre.. The first day [there were 3 total], my Director told all of us he has stomach cancer and, because he has no immune system he cant do khemo, and because its spread too far they cant operate... so he is dying, and there's nothing he can do about it. So we were crying that entire day. But anyway.. We took a bunch of groups there to compete at Dr. Phillips High School, which is behind Islands of Adventure and Universal. And... here's the grading scale.
[Worst] Poor, Fair, Good, Excellent, Superior [Best]
My group got a Good.. which, it wasn't that we aren't good actors at all. The scene my director picked for us just SUCKED major. Ugh. But we got a lot of excellents and superiors, and one Fair that the girl with the monologue that recieved the score did not deserve AT ALL.. she deserved at least an excellent. But we the Drama Department went home with a new sense of family that we did not have before, because everyone had come from two different schools. [my current school is currently in its first year, so.] But anywhoo.
Keeping with the whole theatre bag.. I'm going to be staying a few days in Downtown Tampa, FLA next month for a State Thespian Competition.. Downtown Tampa is going to be FLOODED with theatre kids, haha! I can't wait. I'm not competing, cause only.. a few excellents and as many superiors as we want can compete. We have only one act going though, cause.. we's a bunch of poor fools. xD My parents are dishing out $309 for me to go. o_o In fact, a payment of 100 buckeroos is due friday. x.x Woe is me. xD But I'm so excited. UGH. They have a dance the last night we're there, which is saturday night, and I can't wait for that either. I'm just..excited. x3
Last month, also, was the first time my mom's side of the family has gotten together in probably 5-7 years, since my Oma died. It was a lot more pleasant than I thought it would be. Everyone was there but my Uncle Reimund, his wife, and my cousin Baren... but they had good reason not to be there. My cousin Samantha and I got along as we normally do. Me and her have grown so separate from eachother in the past years. We were so tight when we were little. I went to her house so much, and we had a blast. I love my cousin with all my heart, and I wish things were like that. But now she's conceited, and she's prettier than me, and she's better at a lot than I am. But... just everyone getting together last month reminded me of what it meant to have a real family. Both sides of my family are divided, and it kills me because I want that tight knit family that so many of my friends have. Other than my Aunt Inga, who is also my godmother, I rarely see any other family. I like it that way, don't get me wrong. But I miss childhood.
So I'm going back to talking about theatre again. Sorry, it's one of my passions! But anyway. I'm currently a lead in the musical 'IS THERE LIFE AFTER HIGH SCHOOL?' x3 I'm so happy. My fifth period advanced drama class is also doing the BULLY GOATS GRUFF to raise money, and thats next week... and we arent even half done! o____o so ugh. Theatre is taking up a lot of my time, and I'm exhausted. Next week I'm gunna have double rehearsals, and that is going to SUCK... Oh, and did I mention I get to smoke [fake cigarettes, of course] in the musical? :DDDDDD Lololol. My character was a rebel in high school... Hehe. I see why he made me have that role. -.-; Thanks, Mr. Hair. Lol.
Um.. Let's see... I don't have too incredibly..much more to say. o.o; Well, I was on the verge of breaking down at the beginning of this stupid post, and now I'm kind of hyper. Maybe it's Blaqk Audio's music's fault. xD IN LOVE WITH A SATELLITE!
So. I wonder how many people are going to hate me after this.
hell. No one's going to find out because no one even reads this s**t. -.- So I wonder if it's a waste of time, me writing this crap?
Oh well. I needed to.
Well. I guess that's it, folks.
--Kristi
P.S.; Takai, baby. I love you more than anything in the entire world. <3333
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Meh, I figured something was up with all the 'Kwisti's and shiz. *sighs* I'll get over it, you're not the first to lie to me, hopefully you're the last... But I'll agree, I don't see you as anyone different, you'll still be Alex to me.
I'll...Come back to read the brick wall of text when I have time and when I'm not at school. xD;