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Leave, leave
Why wont it leave?
Can you feel it?
Its still there
Boring away inside
It won?t go
It?s always there
Pushing me
Putting on the pressure

No more I want tot suffer
No more can I put up with it

It has to go
It?s driving me insane

Soon I?ll be there
I?m sure of it
A big white padded room
An inescapable jacket
But only if it doest leave

Will it leave?
Please tell me yes
Tell me it will
Tell me what I want to know
What I need to know

Cant it? Why?
Or wont it?
You?re not telling me straight

What is it?
You?re joking
No it can?t be
Please say it isn?t so
No, no, no!

Make it disappear
Oh please God do!

This pain is unbearable
You have to make it leave
I cant live with it anymore
I just can?t do it
Make it leave!
Make it leave!
Oh please God please!
No, don?t do it
Don?t send me there
Ill cope, I swear
Please, anything but that

Medication, can?t I have some?
Painkillers? Anything?
Oh God, no white room
No inescapable jacket

Hazed lights
I see white
Everything is dimming

What?s going on?
Oh I don?t understand
What?s happening?
The noise is fading
I?m feeling numb

People talking, touching
Bright white light
Need to stay awake
Can?t do it

Someone calling
White light closer
Closer still
It keeps coming closer
No, I?m walking towards it

Why? What is it?
Curiosity, it killed the cat
Will it kill me?
No of course not
I?m not a cat
Don?t be so absurd

Closer and closer still
I hear it
A loud screaming
Yelling and a beep

I?m at the light
It?s brighter than before
I can?t remember

The ain is gone
They?ve done it!
Saviours
Now where am I?
Too bright
It can?t be
Oh no, not this
The light
I should have stayed away

The cat, the curiosity
Maybe I am a cat
Am I a cat?
I don?t know
My life is gone

I can?t feel the pain
I can?t feel a thing

Can?t be a cat
Only one life
Now it?s gone

I want the room
The inescapable jacket

Too late now
Why me?
Why the pain?

It?s gone
But so is everything else

I want it back
It?s all gone

No more life
No more pain
No more unhappiness
No more friends

It?s all gone
All of it


© Krystal Roberts