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I do not know what is going to happen to me. I think I am a person that lives in this world but now I think that this world is not for me any more. I do not know what I am going to do abut it, so many things are going though my head right now. It makes my head hurt just to think of what I used to have and what I want back in my life and how that mite make thing bater. There is someone who I love very much i would kill if he tolled me to, i would not think as to why I would just do it. The one that I fell in love with makes me feel the way I use to in past and I love that. That Is what I want the most to go back and live I what to live life the way I never thought of before and maybe things would have been different. All of that goes away when I am near the one i love with all my heart but He does not love me any more and it makes me sad to be alive now. The thing is that i am waiting for someone to tell me things are going to be okay and that he will come back and my life and go on living with the ones that are close to me.......................................