The answer to that is yes. I have, but the reasuring part to my response is that I am not alone in this. I believe and it has been proven that everyone from time to time take their lives for granted. Is this selfishness? Maybe in a sense...or maybe it's just human nature. Taking our days for granted is some sort of a norm that comes about through the expieriences we encounter from day to day.
I am guilty of taking chances that could have ended my life. I've made rash decisions that could have caused my world to fall apart, but I thank God for supergluing the piecies back together, because I know that I couldn't do it on my own.
Sometimes I feel as if I'm entitled to all of the things that I have, but isn't that arrogance? Yes, but again I am not the only one...everyone dances with arrogance from time to time...some longer than others...but I had to learn the hard way...that I am not entitled to everything...I have to work. I have to put forth an effort, and through that effort...I would survive...
Hence in life I find that I am always learning...
Last week as I lay in my bed thinking like I always do (Thinking is sort of a disease I have) I wondered what would I do...if I had only one month left on this Earth...or even worse...a day...or one hour left to live...to breathe...to live in this place...what would I do? Would I take a trip? No...I wouldn't have the time...would I apologize to the ones that I've hurt or let down? I could try...but there wouldn't be enough time...for time heals all wounds. Would I accomplish a dream? Hmmm....
What I would do...at least my little prayer is that in that hour that I would actually go back and realize how important that day was...and my yesterdays. I would go back to the good times and to the bad times (for both have made me strong) I would think back on these things...and in the end...
My life wouldn't have been lived in vain and most of all it wouldn't have been taken for granted, because I would have cherished every moment I had to live...
