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"My Cross to Bear"....

User ImageI've never felt like I was an epileptic. In the almost 10 years I've had Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy, I've really never felt like I had a disease. I could still do just about anything I wanted when I was in high school (I just had to stay away from strobe lights, which really isn't hard), except for driving since my doc didn't want me to. But I was fine with that, because my friends would pick me up or my parents would take me to wherever I needed to go.

But lately (or to be more precise, since New Year's Eve,) I've felt....like I am actually sick. I've had a total of 10-12 seizures since New Year's Eve (my parents kept a count), and once I even had 3 seizures in less than 12 hours! I had to leave college in the middle of the semester because my doc wanted me to leave while I was switching from Topamax to Keppra.

So the bracelet on my arm is weighing heavy lately. It makes me sad because my parents are now monitoring how long I play video games, how long I'm on the computer, things like that. There's probably more, but those are the two that stick out in my head right now x_x
And now that I'm 21, I feel like I haven't accomplished much. My friends are either married, busy with college/degrees, and/or have jobs. While I didn't think I'd be married yet, I thought (when I was younger) that I would be driving and/or have a job by now. But because of all this...s**t, I can't do either

So, in a sense, this has become "my cross to bear"User Image

My bracelet. I've had it since I was 16, and I next to never take it off

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