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sooooo boooored!!!!i really hate my life! getting blamed 4 evrything all the time. ok i admit i did some things but others were my bros! so y do i get blamed 4 their problems too!? they're the 1s who always start the fights or does something 'n i tell on them but then they lie! then i get blamed by my parents saying i jst made that up jst to get them in trouble! ha! wat a lie, all the stuff i bad mouth 2 evry1 r all true, many ppl jst don't see it. wenevr theres a small argument then we stop 'n i "boo" in front of his face, not a blink, he hits me.i mean does the "boo" word really hurt or scare him lik that? they always say i started this or i started that but when?huh?they didn't hav that proof wen my own eyes see evrything they did, not me. but 2 bad my parents believe them, not me.always say i should learn my place, learn wat though? shouldn't that be them? shouldn't it?say i'm immature? look at them they're the ones who r. i've experienced so much pain mentally 'n physically, i may not b so smart in school but i hav better grades than them evn though i nvr study,the only thing i can understand so clear is life. my life has been trampled on too much, so much that evn wen i want 2 cry i jst can't do it. i've evn been searching 4 a friend who can understand my pain 'n i jst let it all out.tears flowing out of my eyes lik rain, but not 1 understands me. i can tell jst by normally talking 2 them, they aren't my friends. i can't communicate with them or wen they're all in groups all ovr the place i jst walk place to place 2 see if i fit in. but no not 1, i can't fit in any. so i'm really alone. during elementary i would hav some but then l8 they all turned against me calling me fish cuz i smell lik 1.i do not though! evn this girl has gone too far always say "hi fish" 'n "bye fish." always that wenevr she sees me. there was evn 1 time wen i sat by myself wanting 2 stay away from evry1, som1 who used to b my friend purposely passed by me w/ her friend talking bout y they call me fish.i hated her 'n evry1 else. that was wen i started hating evry1, not trusting any1 anymore. desperatly wanting ppl 2 leave me alone, let me b alone. that was wen i started middle school i shut myself up.kept my past all to myself, putting on a face that i can b happy. but deep in my heart its always alone hoping they'd leave me alone soon. i closed myself,keeping evrything 2 myself. my heart always ache 2 cry out loud, but i always can't do it so if evn wen i cry i cry quietly so no 1 hears. i'm stressed evryday becuz of all of them, my eyes want 2 cry out, my heart aches evryday evn as i speak now. i hope u guys understand my pain so i can finally let this sorrowful pain out of me.
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