The One Finger Victory Salute.
Feeling sooo ugly right now.
I'm trying to think why I hate my body so much.
So I'm thinking...my dad.
Aaand...being at school, as well as watching TV.
Now...how to get over hating my body.
Hrm, some say just realizing that you are stuck in the body that was given to you is enough for you to start to like it. Wow, were they wrong.
I realize that, and I like my body even less. And I loathe that I'll never have any money to waste on surgery like liposuction or implants. Plus I hear that lots of guys don't like the idea of a girl being "fake". Well hell, then how are the ugly ones supposed to...I don't know, get guys to like them and not ignore them?
Some say I have to find what I want to change and then change it. I want to lose 20-30 pounds, but my boyfriend doesn't want that, he wants me to lose 15. Now that I know he wants that I feel kinda rushed, but that's okay I guess, cuz I'm sick of being fat. But even after I lose weight, which is something I can change I guess, I still won't be happy, my body still won't be not ugly. I'll still be all, you know, chest-less.
You know society these days, BOOBS BOOBS and more BOOBS. And then there's the whole thing with long legs, full lips, yadda yadda yadda. Slender this and hair that.
So yeah. I'm tired now. Very, very tired. Oh hey it's a quarter til four is why!
See you later Journal, and be happy I'm not typing all that I'm thinking right now.
-Kate
Iklbug Community Member 
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