I know I'm insecure. I'm the most insecure person I know, but I mean dear God, I'm terrible.
I know my boyfriend has other girl friends. But they are ******** gorgeous. Why in hell is he not going out with one of them? Is he just with me out of sympathy?!
I'm younger than him, I don't want some things he does, I have major self-esteem issues, and he loves me anyway?
Ol is pretty. She's a good artist. Great at DDR, awesome at coloring, his age. And she probably likes him.
Jen, Ol's friend. Pretty as well. Both these girls are his friends and both are outgoing by the looks of it.
And his comments with them on there are so friendly so I'unno. I love him but sometimes I can't handle the thoughts that get in my head.
I'm crying so much more often, and I'm crying now after just looking around Myspace at the comments and pics.
It's just too hard for me and I'm getting exhausted with too much damn s**t in my stupid little head.
Hah, I wonder if my boyfriend will read this, he never reads my journal. I wonder what he thinks of all this.
Whatever, I feel like killing myself and ridding everyone of...me.
Maybe I'll see you later Journal. Maybe I won't.
-Katelynn Orellana
Iklbug Community Member 
|
|
