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Dark says (7:46 PM):
I'm pissed
Dark says (7:46 PM):
I go ask mom where my dad is, she tells me he's out walking the dog
Dark says (7:46 PM):
she's asks why I need him
Dark says (7:46 PM):
I tell her of the internet situation
Dark says (7:47 PM):
and she gets all "money is tight, but don't tell your boyfriend about this, I don't want people knowing"
Dark says (7:47 PM):
I mean, ********
Dark says (7:47 PM):
she want everyone to think we're a PERFECT FAMILY?
Dark says (7:47 PM):
I'M SO SICK OF THIS BULLSHIT

I'm SICK of my stupid mother. Why the ******** does the rest of the world have to think we're ******** perfect?! gods, I am ANNOYED. She needs to ******** get over herself. She just can't handle the fact that people might find out we're NOT perfect, we're NOT happy, we're NOT anything she thinks we are!

Everyone in this family is always so mad at each other, and I'm just keeping that trend going, but ********. SHE NEEDS TO ******** GET OVER HERSELF. I'M SICK OF HER. I only put up with her because I HAVE to, since I can't live on my old right now. But this doesn't mean I have to like the s**t she tries to feed me, like I'm still a little kid to be told what to believe and how to behave and what to tell epople when they ask about my life.

I'm not a ******** kid anymore and my should get over her ******** illusion that we're a perfect family. My brother's a bum who might DIE, dad is always irritated with mom's constant nagging and gets mad whenever I ask him anything my niece is a ******** BRAT and I hate them ALL I ******** swear!!

AND IT ******** DISCONNECTED AGIAN! I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH BULLSHIT LIKE THIS JUST BECAUSE MY FAMILY IS A ******** WRECK AND THEY CAN'T ADMIT IT!

********!!

I'm sorry you have to see me like this, but I'm REALLY, REALLY ******** PISSED i am irked beyond any and all ******** reason and right now I just want my mom to stop being an idiot and thinking that I have to lie and tell everyone we're perfect and I'm sick of how she tries to be all ******** "reasonable" about it because that just makes me want to rip off her ******** head.

Dark says (8:00 PM):
And then she comes in all "we have so much to pay for the net is about $100 a month put some lotion on your face"
Dark says (8:01 PM):
I'M TIRED OF HER MENTIONING MY SKIND AND HAIR AND EVERYTHING THAT IS ******** IRRELEVANT TO THE CONVERSATION
Dark says (8:01 PM):
SHE'S JUST UPSET THAT I DIDN'T TURN OUT EVEN DECENT LOOKING

ALWAYS THE ******** SKIN OR HAIR LIKE THAT'S ALL THAT ******** MATTERS.

Because I don't fit in to the image of the perfect family. Because I'm not hot, beautiful, or even pretty. Because my skin is dry and my hair isn't styled.

Because I'm not female on the inside and I could care less. I don't want to be a stereotype.

Because I'm a Punk. Because I'm a Social Outcast. Because I'm me and I would be the perfect daughter if I was a drone that got good grades. I don't do drugs don't drink and I get good grades I never get in trouble at school or anything BUT HER PROBLEM is that I'm not a ******** prep and that means I don't fit into her little illusion of perfection.

Just because I look talk act and dress like I do.

(I know there's no punctuation anywhere but bear with me. I'm really upset over here and crying.)

I'm sick of this bullshit. SICK OF IT.