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My birthday April 04/04/2008

Well on my actual birthday I worked 4p-12p in the freezer with the biggest Jerk in the store,when he found out it was my birthday,he gave me a "Supprise" birthday present right to my face.

A chunk of ice he found in the back of the freezer.>.>

It was the only gift I got,no one even got me a card.

On my birthday party that I rescheduled so my friends could make it(And so I wasn't working that day) No one showed up,it was just me,stranded at the lazer tag arena,by myself...for 3 hours.

I guess I expected it though,I was actually looking forward to seeing my predicted results come true,cause I know I was right.

It might not have been so bad if I didn't have to watch another kid who just happened to have his birthday party on the same day and at the same place.

Him:30+ people
Me: None

I just wanted to fade into nothing,because I felt like nothing.

What's worse was that I spend 100$ on all of my friends B-days when they come around,whether it's a gift,or a card with a hundred dollar bill in it.

So I made a big deal out of their birthday and they don't even get me a card...That's all I wanted ...was for someone to care I was born...at all.

I continue to give them money for their B-day though,because I don't want them to think I hate them,I was just...dissapointed.

They're the only friends I have anyway.

What's funny is that there was a girl I liked that I spent 250$ on her B-day gift and I suprised her at work in the break room...but when my B-day came around...wel...

Me:Guess what? I'm 17 today!
Her:Cool
Me:...Yeah... *Walks away*
Random guy: Happy birthday Ty.
stare

Yeah.

This is why I hate birthdays.

Bad memories.