Recently, I've realized something:
I love him a lot more than I believed a human could in a lifetime.
I haven't slept much in a few months, ( about an hour to two a night since early March) so I've had a notable amount of time to give it the thought I have. I love him so much, that I'd be willing to be miserable without him the rest of my life if that made him happy. I can feel when he's unhappy. I get sick to my stomach, and if he's hurting badly enough, have even thrown up. Of course, at the time, I thought I was just sick. It wasn't until later on, when I hear about him feeling sad that it made me think our pains are connected.
Since (nearly) the beginning of our knowing each other, there were always signs of some sort of connection between us that surpassed our bodies. Something like telepathy. We could sense when the other was feeling something bad, or could practically read each others' thoughts.
Lately, I've missed him more than I have anyone else in my life so far. He's that one person that came into my life, and now I don't know what I ever did without him. It's just crazy. Hearing his name sends chills down my spine. His eyes make me melt. His smile gives me the urge to hold onto him and never let go. I don't want to let go...
Even though he told me I should...
· Sat May 24, 2008 @ 11:55pm · 0 Comments