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Dear Journal,
I feel so unstably. I have to make a drastic decision that involves my own heart. All day I try to avoid the situation, the facts and the fantasy. It driving me mad....

I feel as if someone pulled my heart out and no matter how much I beg, that person won't give it back. This pain is too much the bare, I can no longer hold my tears back.
No matter how hard I try to act hyper and happy, I go back to the same spot. Nothing can ease the pain... Nothing... I feel my body trembling, knowing things are heading for the worse... But what do I do... I have no chose...

I hate myself... I am starting to hate life too.... I wish things would be different but I have to face the music no matter how much pain it brings me...


I don't want to be alone....

-Oreo