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Will I ever breathe right? These tangled thoughts, this tired skin, these bones so brittle, won't let you in... I'm so... Confused. And worried. Tons of homework to get done. I'm worried about pleasing everyone who needs pleasing. I'm worried about staying on top of everything. Actually, I have a list of things I'm worried about. School: I have next to nothing done in the way of summer homework. I have somewhere around 45 artworks to do. I've done one. I have six books to read, and I've read half of one. Me = fail. I'm worried about keeping up with everything next year. Friends: I can't keep up with everyone. Brandon. --I feel like a burden. --I'm afraid that I'm rushing things. --I think I need too much from him, and that he trusts me too much. I don't think that I'm stable, and if anything ever happened to split us up... I don't want him to miss opportunities because he's putting me first. He is > me. I love him. I don't want him to limit himself because of me. I think that's all... All for now, at least. My back is freaking out, and my stomach is screaming. I probably have to get blood drawn (which I hate) because of the stomach thing. (I hate it because wherever they stick me always hurts for a few days, and (BRANDON, SO HELP ME, IF YOU LAUGH AT THIS THEN I'LL BITE YOU.) I usually pass out when they do it.) Blech. Okay, I'm leaving now. <33.

Posted by: Catchren Tue Jul 08, 2008 @ 02:26am

Catchren is mental. Please be gentle.
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Mon Jul 14, 2008 @ 12:54pm

(I am sorry, I did laugh... BUT! I bit my tongue when I read what you put after it... 3nodding I stopped... sorta... I had to bite my cheek and my tongue, but I did stop!)

I am sorry things are so confusing. I want to be there for you. Even if it is just helping you get your bearings, I want to help you.
You shouldn't be worried about keeping up with work during the school year until Junior and Senior year, as long as you do your best, or at least try your best, you will be fine.
I don't know what to say about summer work. I am just as screwed as you are for the summer reading, but the artwork might be a trick.
I suppose you will just have to wing it. Try your best to make as many as you can. Don't fret as much over details and just get it finished. That's the way I used to do it.

Your not a burden. I want to be there to help you. I want to be there for everyone, it is just how I am. I am trying dear, I am trying to keep a balance. I trust you will make your own decisions how you see fit. I might push in for a few things, but I am trying to let you be.
I am, of course, going to put you first. My life is not much, it won't be much until I am free.
Once I am free all I have to focus on is you and school. School should come first, but if at all possible, I will fit you in with the top.
I love you. I don't ever want to lose you.

I will make sure I am not leaning on you. I understand you don't think your stable. I will be sure to make room. If you fall, I have the full intention of picking the pieces back up.

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