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For once, it's Katie doing a journal entry!!

Mood: Dark, upset.
Song I'm Listening To As I Write This: November Rain - Guns N' Roses
Hair: Silky/messy
What I Wanna Do Right Now: Make this horrible pain of longing and darkness disappear/sleep.

I found out today that Ami's leaving. Her cancer has gotten so much worse, so she's going to a facility somewhere in the States for it. I don't wanna lose her. She's my closest amd dearest friend. If she dies, I don't know what I'm going to do.

And on the flip side of the coin (Which also sucks), I can't get this one person off my mind! He's everywhere!! I can't help it. We used to have a thing... but now it's over, and I just can't seem to get him off my mind... why am I cursed like this? I can't even close my eyes, because I'm tourtured by out last embrace... out last kiss... There are just so many reasons I have to put that pistol to my head right now.

The only thing that's stopping me is... well, I'd rather not say it, but it's all I have right now.

Maybe I should be alone right now? And hearing this song for the twentith time is not helping, but honestly, who doesn't like Guns N' Roses? Best band ever. Period.

And the really stupid thing is that me that the guy split up ages ago. Why is it that only now, I long for the one forbidden fruit that I cannot have? It's just so dumb...

I am just so damn confused right now...