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i've started this so all of my friends can see this, so that they can understand the person behind mel. (cept for you arcanmerel, you know everything bout me basiclly, but its still good that you read this...you never know i could have hidden things from you sad )) anyways:

Life has been pretty rough for me, truely, i have no idea of where to start, but I guess i'll explain to you why my life is pretty rough for me. I was born in North Carolina and well i never really saw my father,-he was in the army so, yea i know im a army brat,- and so all i had was my mother and god parents as well as at times my uncle, but he too was in the army. around the time that i was 4 or 5 years old, my parents and i moved to texas, there my parents got a divores. i took me several years to understand why they did that, and today i still do not know all the reasons, but i do have a general idea as to why. my mother won custity over me and so i begain my life living with her and my grandparents. over next 6 or 7 years, my mother worked 3 jobs a day and i never saw her, my grandparents raised me practically. after a while we "settled" down, mum dateing a different guy ever other week or month, most were assholes and cheated on her. finally around 10 years of age. mum met this guy at a bar, he was nice and .....well that was really all. sadly, our oh so happy life changed. mum and rodger began to drink more and more with each passing week, then she started to drink constinaly. on top of that she smoked as well. after liveing with this guy for 1 1/2 years, i started to actually like the guy.((now you know that they say, look at the way a animal reacts to a person?...if the animal is all over the person or something..its a good thing, and if it starts barking or whatever at him/her, then ditch that person, well its true)) my cat, buttercup, and my dog, nanook, started to act strangely around rodger. i knew something wasnt up because..you may think this stange but, i had some sort of "conection" with my cat and dog...mostly buttercup, id talk to her every night and what not, she was my best friends, literaly. one day while i was feeding her rodger decided to throw her and she ran away causeing her to eat rat poision and dies.((i was pissed at that moment. if you couldnt tell)) and soon nanook started to act strangely as well. one day while i was at school her attacked ((to this day she was scars of the attack.)) that to was not a good sign. later, we moved again and settled down once again. thats when it happened.....((i wont say what happened because it still lingers, the smell, the words, everything, its to strong, and i will problly freak out on my friends so...we'll keep that gate closed for now)) anyways, he came home after school drunk as hell and well lets say that i dont think he'll try anything again..hes not able to unless he wishes to go to jail. after that my life started to really settle down. everyonce and a while i'll have dreams bout that very day, and what happened. but i know that i have god with me though everything and i also have my friends along with me as well.

well thats a short part of my life story, and i wish to thank all of my friends, you truely know who you are...you have helped me so much , that you dont realize it. thank you all for being there for me when i truely need you.((esp. arcanmerel, thank you for always being there for me in ohio and still know when i truely need you. i could always depend on you. thank you so much...remember, we may not be sisters in the real world, but hell, we're elfish sisters for life. wink heart agian thank you arcanmerel....))