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Fire the Kiwi
I'll what I want.. When, I want..
I can't take it and it's not even me, I guess it's me but I'm just crazy.
I wanna scream but my voiced is ruined, I can't squeal. I can't cry, my body hates me. I can't do anything right, I'm just too scared.
I depend on myself and when stuff like this happens I'm left in the dark, with the stalker that's unwanted, I think they all are though. I will feel that joy cause I'll remember how low I felt, right now. Things run through my mind but is it my fault?
I want someone stable in my life, I guess I want stability in general.
To leave, to stay, to get out and go. You wont hear me say, I swear you wont, I wont even put it. Your doing fine, I hope, your not me or even mine.
Oh me, oh my, just frickin say it, goodbye. You left me, didn't tell me, but that's fine.. These words etched in my mind are negative for now, I wont wait for that savior, I wont be a fool. To hold a grudge is something I don't wanna do. Things have been taken from me... only the ones that can't be replaced hurt the most though, I know what I had, I messed up what I had and have the stupidity to backtrack..
Planning, actually, to tell you again, how I felt or even time will tell how I feel.
It's not me, guessing it can't be you, or 'them' but there is no blame to be pointed out..

I wont say I'm sorry, my thoughts are that, mine, you'll live your life too close to be far and we'll collide. One day, future, no more of the past, then we'll pass right on by each other.. cause.. It'll be another lifetime, you and I.
Now I've gone corny and my emotions numb, outside there is no sound and yet it calls.

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