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Don't I find it odd, that I would always return back to you.. My comfort... Even after all of my dellusions and mis-adventures, I would only return to you....These.. 'friends' of mine, this 'love' that I have. All with their own little whorls surrounding my vacant heart. We, this, "you" and I... not "they" and I. I should use these terms with no sarcasm as they would want me to.
After all, I do 'love' my 'friends'... Well, that is the concept I was always told to believe in. However, even twin shadows can never touch, less be friends to one another. Why? Its simple. The shadow... is a mere trickery of Light, a sick twisted joke carved from the essence of that which it fears into hatred. Designed to be the perfect mockery of those who would so proudly, so boldly call themselves, "The Darkness". Am I to be your Mockery?
Or am I to be your fool, for finding comfort in "those beings". Such creatures, so similar to me... Not knowing our paths never crossed, nor that I have never been, nor could comprehend... that I am not like them, nor have i ever been.
So, it is always to you I return, to here I lay. To this burnt haven beyond the willing reach of these who call themselves... my "Guardians". These weak fabled mockeries I have created for myself within my own "Realities" have then since created their own, and such my vicious cycle continues to which I fear, I have long entrapped myself....
However, if I remain here, within the comfort of my own little Haven, they will notice me gone, both will. And so.. I must return to them both and pretend as I have never broken away, as so is my desire. Neither will ever know of the intents of my Haven, nor its purpose in my Desires. If asked, the dreaded... "why?"
Then, they shall never know.... So it is truly up to me. For I have remained now, far too long away from you.. my Haven. I weaken without you, my Haven, so, despite their 'carings','wants','pleads' and 'desires'... to me, they will all be gone away, and only falsely remembered. For truth be told,

"It is YOU... my 'friends' who have kept me away.. from this... which is.. MY HAVEN."