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i hve learn so much over the years, and its enough to cuz a murder
or cuz one to harm them selves
but within the last tow days ill never tell a soul wat pain, i hve felt
my mind is almos gone, and my soul has been torn

i love someone, and i cant come to tell him that i wanna die so bad becuase of my pain
i wish i could tell him, but i cant
because i know he has so much to deal with on his on, but i can say
as long as i love him, and he loves me , everything
will be okay

but im gonna run away, yesh, my condition is not getting any betta... i dont hve to take it anymore i candisapper for ever, i can run away i wouldnt be missed,
im alone , and im cold, and i feel heartbroken, because my mother told me that she could give a damned if i lived or die as long as she gets money for me


but one sweet day il come to peace where i can sleep never have to wake up again
i bare cuts on my arms where i hve cut to bleed my self to death, i hve burn marks on my legs and arms to remind me of howugly my soul is......and how ill never be happy until im in his arms

and we are away from this world together, im so angery, im so lost ... sometimes if it wasnt for my love i would be in a corner cutting my self, i worry about him so much, and i wonde does he till love me, or does he think of me any

my body is worn out......all i want is pece all i want is rest , all i ant is to see what one day would belike with out me in there lives.....buti kno im not even worth of saying these things. beicase sh gave me life so i owe here everything,so until im able or of age to set free ill be her slave one day my pece will come, an the curse and spell will end on u all..........