Boys on the Brain
I spent the last summer getting over my latest crush. He was a particularly hard guy to shake too. Let's call him Mike. I've always thought he looked like a Michael.
Anyways, this boy has been on my brain FOREVER. I had a crush on him in fourth grade and eighth grade, dated him and broke his heart in ninth, forgot about him in tenth, and recrushed on him in eleventh. While he was dating another girl. It was not a fun time for me. Over the summer I realized that he wasn't what I was looking for in a guy and I definately was not right for him. I think it was just comforting to say, "Oh, yeah, I've got a crush." Or something like that.
One of my friends always used to say, "Oh, Rachel, you'll be much happier when you relize that you don't need a man to complete your life."
To which I would reply, "I know I don't need one, but they're still nice to have around."
As well meaning as my friend was, I couldn't take her advice seriously. She is happy and content with a perfectly nice boyfriend.
So, I'm over Mike but I still think about him a lot. Before we dated in ninth grade, he was like my best friend. After we broke up it was akward and we really didn't have the same friends.
Now we do.
I see him all the time at parties and in school. We sit right by each other in one of my classes and eat lunch together. I've found myself missing the easy companionship we once shared. I love him. Not romantically- I'm over that- but more like a brother. I miss him. And I'm not sure how to fix it.
On a happier note, I'm glad to report that I have developed no new crushes! Things are so much easier when I haven't got Boys on the Brain all the time.
-Ta Ta
A.A.
View User's Journal
Me, Myself, and the Voice in my Head
 |
AlanivAsthore
Community Member |
User Comments: [1]
|
User Comments: [1]