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Stayed home from school today.

No breaks this week.

So, I was home alone all day...as soon as mom gets home, the shouting starts.

The dog peed on the carpet in the living room. He's been peeing on the rugs in the bathroom for about a month or more, and mom is mad. He never used to do that, and no one can figure out why he does it, but it gets mom all ******** pissy.

He peed on the living room carpet. Mom is having a fit. She's yelling at dad again. That's all she ******** does now is yell at my dad. I look at the and wonder if that's how I'll end up if I ever get married. Will I become what I hate? An annoying, ignorant b***h who never listens? Who only yells?

Is that what I'm going to turn into?

And dad just sits there and takes it. He doesn't deserve it. Mom acts like she's the only one who ever does anything in this house, the only who works. She's not. Dad is sick of her yelling. I'm sick of HER. I hate her. I hate my mother. I ******** hate her.

I don't like it when I hear people yelling at each other. I hate it. I don't like it when people fight. It hurts me. I can't stand it. And what makes it worse is that when I walk out there, mom looks at me and yells "DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT, WITH THOSE EYES!"

What did I do? I didn't do anything.

And now mom is yelling at dad because there are some towels in the washing machine. God, she's such a b***h. God do I hate her. Why won't she just go away? She's been making me into a wreck for way too long. She thinks that she's the only one who's ever bothered by anything.

I'm locked in my room crying again because I can't stand listening to her anymore. I need someone. Anyone. Where is everyone when I need them? I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I don't know. I hate everything. I hate my mother. I want her gone.

I don't know what to do. I feel sick.

I feel so goddamn sick of her.