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I'm leaving you all...soon. Yeah sure, on Gaia I act like a skank. That isn't who I am. I wish I could put my blame on someone but it always comes back to me. I decided to ruin my life and made my mistakes when knowing full well that what I did was wrong. I can't ask for forgiveness because I don't deserve it. I deserve to die for trying to be someone I'm not. I thought I was filling some hole in my life. Now it's just gotten bigger and more painful. I'm not sure I can take this any more. This hole won't stop growing... cry no matter how hard I try to fix it. Me! It's all my fault and I'm tired of carrying this weight on my shoulders. I've wronged so many people and they don't even know. They don't have a clue what I've done and that hurts even more. No one on Gaia really knows me and they never will. I'll be leaving you all soon. This isn't who I am and who you think I am is not coming back.

Posted by: shinju kumagai Mon Oct 13, 2008 @ 11:37pm

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Loneliness,
Being terrible at making friends
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Commented on: Thu Oct 16, 2008 @ 11:49pm


	are you quite all right there? You might want to take up Krav Maga to get out all that anguish...Or turn Wiccan, either way xD Anyways, we'll all miss you on Gaia! xD

Commented on: Mon Oct 20, 2008 @ 01:45am


	Real Life Me : I understand. Just because I'm a kid still you might not see it. I did something really really really horrible. I regret it of coarse . I try asking God Forgiveness... But He cant now, i became a demon in the inside. You might did something wrong, so what? If you can change & never do it again everyone forgives you. 3nodding Trust Me on it.. Forgive Yourself & never do it again. Its pretty hard to do but ur mentally strong, you overcome the pain. Do it & you'll be a step closer to loving urself =] I know I make it sound simple. It took me a good 2 weeks to forgive myself. =0 just dont punish your self on your mistakes. Like you said, "God gave us challenges." If you cant beat it then... no cookie for you V-V But I see me & you with cookies in our hands,munching them crazily :3 lol cheer up please. Don't just do it for us, do it for you as well. Thats all I ask. Oh & there hot melty chocolate chip cookies razz I love you mommy, hope you overcome ur challenges. Dude, where's my UFO?

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Commented on: Mon Oct 20, 2008 @ 01:51am


	Real Life Me : I understand. Just because I'm a kid still you might not see it. I did something really really really horrible. I regret it of coarse . I try asking God Forgiveness... But He cant now, i became a demon in the inside. You might did something wrong, so what? If you can change & never do it again everyone forgives you. 3nodding Trust Me on it.. Forgive Yourself & never do it again. Its pretty hard to do but ur mentally strong, you overcome the pain. Do it & you'll be a step closer to loving urself =] I know I make it sound simple. It took me a good 2 weeks to forgive myself. =0 just dont punish your self on your mistakes. Like you said, "God gave us challenges." If you cant beat it then... no cookie for you V-V But I see me & you with cookies in our hands,munching them crazily :3 lol cheer up please. Don't just do it for us, do it for you as well. Thats all I ask. Oh & there hot melty chocolate chip cookies razz I love you mommy, hope you overcome ur challenges. Dude, where's my UFO?

Commented on: Tue Oct 21, 2008 @ 12:03am


	ok yes i dont know u in real life, yes i will never know, but no i dont belive u are a bad person. i dont have awhole life changing speach or anything but really saying my life sucks,i did terrible things i screwed up its over. that is giveing into the world but i just want to say this: i like u even though i dont really know u,i want to hang out with u even if u think im a loser,and im willing to listen to any problems u want to talk about...just cheer up and everyone deserves forgiveness no matter what!!!

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Commented on: Mon Oct 27, 2008 @ 04:27am


	honestly i dont kno u. but on the other hand i can bet 80% of the ppl on gaia dont act as them self, wither its lying about there age, name, personality etc.but thats what u get when u on the internet, its a place for u to be free be any body u wnat, but it dont mean u have to leave. and dieing over being something ur not, psshhhhh =). all most ppl are gunna ask is for u to try and be ur self =) and if they cant see u trying, well i feel that there not worth ur friendship. gurly im sure u kno that ur just feeling guilty. i prolly have no place even writing this, but its kinda late for that. im prolly not making u feel any better, i wish i had something to say that would make everything all better, but unfortunately i dont. but i would like to tell as a new friend that u can talk to me any time u like, and about what ever. anyways i really hope u stay, that way i could get to kno the real u ^_^ (if ur up to it) well i hope u have a good night. sweet dreams, ttyl =)

Commented on: Sun Nov 02, 2008 @ 09:13pm


	well you shouldnt down your self like this sometimes you dont need forgiveness so as long as you admit your mistakes and know what you did wrong so the next time you learn from your mistakes people deserve second chances others dont you r that person who deserves a second chance and to tell you the thruth im only 14 and i have had some troubling choices and mistakes to me its a curse cause no matter how much i try to forget its still there so what im trying to say is that if you keep downing your self you will destroy your self and i hope you have a nice day jumpingbunnie i would type your name but i dont know it srry sweatdrop

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Commented on: Mon Nov 03, 2008 @ 07:42pm


	We are all sinners. We are all human, therefore we are all sinners. No man or woman can lead a perfect life, not the kind of perfect everyone is so used to imagining. Life is perfect because of it's pros and cons. None of us will live without sin for again we are human and for that we ask forgiveness, we ask God to spare us and how merciful He is! He will not leave your side even if you believe he has! God will test us over and over again, we can all handle our hardships because God knows we can. You must prove yourself, not to us we have no right to judge, but to God. Believe in yourself and find yourself and then there will be nothing to hide. Ask forgiveness, for it is all we can do, and move on, move on because life is short and you must carry on for a wasted life is an imperfect one.

Commented on: Sun Jan 04, 2009 @ 02:38am

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