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Mommy i'm scared, I can't help myself.
I'm trying to cut, I want to cut,
I have to see the blood.
You and Daddy can't see that i'm depressed.
I'm becoming numb to it all.
Ican't cry, i'm not sad.
All I feel is anger, but you can't see.
I've tried to hint, hint to you what's happening.
YOU are the reason this is happening to me.
All the black I wear,
All the dark music I listen to.
How i've isolated myself from the crowd.
You punish me for the things I haven't done.
But you don't see, all you're doing is encouraging me.
Encouraging my depression,
My anger, my want to cut.
I know cutting's wrong,
But I can't help myself.
I have to see the blood.
To tell myself that there really is something wrong with me.
Now do you see Mommy?
Do you see what's happening to me?
You may have started the problem,
But i'm gonna ******** end it.