God. I just want to drift away until things fix themselves. I feel well, depressed enough as it is, I don't need anything making that worse. I'm just glad I can fall back on my friends and writing. They help me a lot. If I didn't have them, I don't know what I would do.
When it seems like I'm just too damn happy, I usually feel the opposite. Its hard really. To keep up a facade that many don't see through...It both tires and irritates me. I just want to act like I feel, not like how everyone "knows" I act like. The only problem with that is many would think I had a serious problem, and I'd probably be sent to the hospital for observation ><
God, I'm NOT crazy, and I'm NOT fricking suicidal, and I hope to NEVER go to a place like that. V.V
Well, I'm crazy in my own quirky ways, but isn't everybody? No one is actually normal anymore.
Haha. There goes my jacked up sense of humor again. I should try to keep that under wraps sometimes.
Just to let anyone know if they're actually reading this, I'm NOT going to do anything, I've started writing poetry again and its helping me tremendously. ^^ Its dark as hell, but who cares? it helps me get my feelings out, and I'm glad that I can talk to my friends here if I have to <3
Ja!
Katz
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