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okay this is driving me nuts!

san diego is really helping me lose my hardcore touch!

like my cousin mikey is all into my normal music (like ETF, Paramore, Senses Fail and stuff like that) but also into electronica and rap!

i know that sounds weird, but yea!

his friends are into like... rap.. but not the stupid retarded rap..

but.. good rap...? O.o

omg this sounds so weird coming from me!

but yea theyre getting me into it!! its horrifying!!!

its scaring the crap out of me!

like when we had to take the guys home right now, nolan was singing along with one of the songs in the car that was rap...ish..

and i was like O.O "what?!?! whats wrong with me?!?!"

but yea.. i actually like it!

for example the song Undead by Hollywood Undead!

im not really sure if thats 'rap' but i like it..

and i like a lot of The Beastie Boys!!

like their song The New Style... i love it!

i mean, they have always been cool, but i would actually take the time and listen to them!

*gasp*

but when we were in the car to drop them off, it was so horrible!

like.. picture me in a really really cold room...shaking...

but instead im sitting next to a guy..with his 2 other friends and my cousin..

like, i hate it when i want to talk, but then instead im just like *stays quiet*

i cant stand the way i act around guys... its sickening that i can never speak!!!!

i hate it!!!!!! with a passion!!!

i need help.... really.. if you have any suggestions, PLEASE!!

FOR MY SAKE!!!!!! i am being completely serious... yea..