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I'M NOT WORKING TODAY ... ******** THAT.

THIS FEELING DOES NOT EXPIRE ...

ALL I CAN MANAGE ARE DELIRIOUS, DRIFTING THOUGHTS NOW.

******** IT ... I WILL SPILL NOW.

WHEN I DIED ...
THAT NIGHT.
SPINNING FASTER & FASTER.
BUT I WAS STANDING STILL.
MY HEARTBEAT SLOWING ...
GONE.
& THEN DARKNESS.
LIKE STANDING IN NOTHING.
NO BRIGHT LIGHT LIKE PEOPLE SAY ...
AT LEAST NOT FOR ME.
JUST A VOICE IN THE BLACK.
"NO LAUREY. NOT YET."
& I OPEN MY EYES ...
JYMMI PICKS ME UP OFF THE FLOOR.
& RIGHT THERE, AT THAT EXACT MOMENT, I DECIDED.
I HAD ENOUGH OF THAT LIFESTYLE.
I WAS DONE.
& I WILL NEVER GO BACK.

MY MOTHER SAYS IT WAS A RELIGIOUS EXPERIENCE.
& I GOT A SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE ... BLAH, BLAH, BLAH CRAP.

IT WAS AN EXPERIENCE. YES.
& I CAN'T EXPLAIN THE VOICE.
I NEVER HEARD IT BEFORE OR AGAIN, SINCE.

MY THEORY IS THAT I JUST DON'T GIVE UP.
I AM TOO STRONG WILLED.
& I LOVE LIFE.