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i hate my life im so lame i live in a buble not actually but i feel like it and what sucks is that im the one who put me there
see for 15 years i have been single like in real life not the game cuz i have had meny a boy in the game but thats just it everything i do in the game everything i say is all me but in real life its not there im the shy little girl that u see in the corner just standing there by herself and not talking but laughing at all the jokes and the guys/girls that are around me.
whats sad is im afrad of everything im afrad of rollor costers, scary movies, and whats sad as i have thought of killing myself but u know im to scard to do that too im a scardy cat and i need to be more out going but u know i cant do it i just cant i love my friends and my best friends in the whole world but i feel that im not me and i really want to be i cry at night because another day goes by that im alone yes my friends and family and there with me but thats not what i meen im alone in spirit i have none to love me the way i want them to to kiss me and to hold me in there arms when im cold or anything like that i see all the happy people and i wish every night that i just dont wake up that i dont feel anything no pain not even know its happend and just the next time i wake up im on a cloud with people i dont even know and just fly around but i wake up everyday 6:00 like always go on with my life and suck it up i just want to be loved by a great guy that will kiss me just cuz he can and hold me not just because im cold just because he missed me event tho i just saw him like a hour ago just cuz he loves the way i feel next to him and intwined with his body i just want something to go right in my life and just be loved