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Happy place v.s. Reality

Happy Place is the greatest, peaceful place to be in. It allows people to calm down, think of things they dont have in reality. In my happy place, I see my friend Rebecca, still going at my school, still hanging out with Jennifer and me. Having my best friend Brigitte, (girl mentioned in the previous journal); still being friends and still having fun from sitting next to each other on the bus, having fun at school, then at home messaging each other on IM, and sometimes she'll call me "Onii-san", which means big brother (darn myself, I'm already making myself cry cry ). Thats my happy place, still having my friends, still being with her.

Reality is the cruelest, destructive place to be in. The more I live in it, my life worsens, for in it, everything hurts me. Rebecca cant come back to my school, for she got bad grades and transfered and Brigitte and I can be friends no more for she hates me. Everyday we see each other, she ignores me, yells at me, and rejects all favors i do for her. I ask her "cant we be friends, go back how it was?", but she responds in a hatred voice, "No! Get out my life already for you dont belong in it, and you never did!" This words shatter my heart, yet, now, if you ever see me, dont ask how am , for I'll just lie, cause inside i feel sad, depressed, and probably going to my happy place, looking back to the past, at my memories, for if I dont it'll fade away just as my friendship with Brigitte.