feel stressed.
Seriously. I think it's my time of the month, (even though it's only been less than a week.) This has happened before, for when I find myself under a ton of stress, my clock seems to go out of sink. I've had it twice last month. (Only two weeks apart from each other.)
I feel broken. I do. I barely get any sleep during this "event".
I usually wake up twice in the middle of the night. Every night.
Am I doing something wrong? I don't know anymore.
I just want to break down and cry. But, I can't. For my parents freak out and hover over me. All I want is to be left alone and cry until I can't anymore. Is that too much to ask for?
Also, my Mom accused me of taking something from here. I didn't though and told her that. She didn't believe me. So what does she do? She looks through all my personal belongings! My old diaries, and very old items that bring back many old memories; some good, some bad. She threw away a lot of the stuff she considered "junk". Like this old dusty piece of paper with a name written in invisible marker brushed over with clear nail polish to preserve what was written there. I cannot tell you the name. It hurts me just knowing the name that was on the paper. And she threw it away! I can't find it! She said it was junk. I'm seriously P/O'd.
Finally, I found what she thought I had taken from her in my little sister's room. I asked her if she could apologize but she didn't. What have I done wrong. I don't know what to do anymore.
[EDIT]
I am so sorry if someone reads this and is offended by it. I needed to let that out. For, I cannot talk to my parents about this. I break up and usually start to cry. I just cannot help it. Then they try to console me and I hate that. When I cry, I usually just want to hide away.
Once again, I am sorry. I hope this did not bring back any unpleasant memories to anybody. If it did, I feel ashamed.
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