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The Sad Story Of Machick Gay (gay boy)

"Faget", as the boy said with his finger pointed at me. I just closed my eyes as the other guys started to catch on. "Your a Faget! O my god! he got up and moved away from me. I had know idea!" "Your a gayford! Ah Sickman! that is so nasty!" They all started to laugh and make fun of me, as I sat in excile. Soon it got around the whole school, and after a couple of days they labled me as gay. Being self absorbed, I sat in excile, I sat through all my classes with only my best friend jesse to be their with me through this pain. "Who cares! It doesn't matter what people think, just be who you are. smile "jesse said. But in my mind... nothing mattered. I couldn't even breathe anymore. I couldn't relax, I just didn't care anymore. "Nothing matters now..." my eyes started to fill with tears. "Don't say that... Come on cheer up." Tears now running down my face. "Oh lookat the gayford! Ah... hes crying. Ohhh... do you need a hug?!" The students and the teacher started to laugh. Some took pitty... but not many. For being ashamed. Jesse sat there and gave me a big hug. Now both of us crying. "Maybe you can change schools... or move away?..." No... I can't... my parents won't let me move or even transfer. I don't know what to do..." After a few minutes I released myself from her arms and wiped my eyes. "What now?..." "I don't know... but whatever happens... you are my best friend... you were always there for me, no matter what. Thank you... for everything..." Tears now streaming down her face. I gave her a big hug, and started walking to the door. "Hey sweatheart... where are you going?" As I closed the door there was another uproar of laughter from the room. I walked to the bathroom and got up onto the toilet and pulled out my lighter. Lite it and stuck under the smoke detector. A couple minutes later and the alarm went off. I waited until the sound of footsteps faded away. I then left to join them outside were I found Jesse still crying. The students and teachers were still in an uproar trying to figure out what the hell just happend. I gave Jesse a hug and said "Goodbye... I hope to see you again." "Of course..." now wiping the tears streaming down her checks. I then walked home... not caring for my actions. My parents were still at work and my brother was still at school. I went outside for a cig. and thought things through. Then i went to my room for my favorite cds and my stereo and went to the jacuzzi room. I set up my stereo and started the warm water. I went into my room and I got all the things that ment something to me and went back to the jacuzzi room. I locked the door and put on the used (first cd). I started to look at old photographs, my artwork, and magazine clippings and then I went and turned off the water and poured in the bubbles. I put on my favorite song (the last train ride home, by the lost prophets) and i put it on repeat. My eyes started to tear as i started to undress. I looked in the mirrors around the tub and looked back at myself, thinking over my life. I got into the tub and closed my eyes as i listened to the music. As my eyes were now balling i picked up the razor blade and slit my wrists. I looked back over my life and all the special people who i had got to know like Jesse. Thinking through everything that happened, I sank into the tub as I held my breath and now the water turned red... goodbye as I thought. The anounsment at school of my death was a shock for some. They realized what they had just done to me... They are sorry now... and now... payback. I will haunt all those who have hurt me. And... Jesse... thank you... I am always here to watch over you... I am your gardien angel... whenever you need someone... I am there. I will protect you... you can't be touched. I will always be here for you...
- Malchick_Gay-