~~How quickly I forget.
It's ******** great. Life that is. You think things are going in this great direction. You're completely happy, and things are looking up. So what does life do? It shits in your path. It takes everything you had, everything that you wanted, and it ******** it all up. It's so ******** frustrating. I swear at this point I seriously want to kill myself. Im too much of a coward though.
I think a good alternative would be to start over. Move away, to a new place. Not let anyone know where im going and just start a new life. I want to so bad, I feel like crying. I threw my heart into this. My heart, my time, my money, my ******** morals for christ sake, and im getting nothing in return. Why? WHY??!! I don't understand it, I hate it. It almost makes me hate you..but I dont. I still love you. So much that it hurts me. My life revolves around you.
Le sigh.
sad
I know, no one reads this, but for anyone who does stumble in here just ignore it. It's complicated as hell.
That this, is meaningless.~~
