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I'm just living in misery, right now.
My head hurts;no sleep, my eyes hardly can open; crying to much, my voice is all soft; because of crying, my body is shivering; just shocked, and my heart has been beating really fast since yesterday.
...Did I do something wrong?
I finally admitted that, it wasn't meant to be, yet, I can't help but think. It's really foolish of me, am I too young? Am I too immature? Am I not ready?
I don't know.
I feel so used.
I feel so lonely.
I feel so wasted.
I feel so heart broken.
I'm starting to believe my parents are right. I was always trying to prove them wrong. How I could get a boyfriend. How, I'm not that ugly, boring, etc.
But, really? I'm everything they said I am.
I can't really smile. It just hurts my lips.
I just, am horrible.

-sighs-