I really need to do something other than going to school...seriously. I have no life outside of school, it's almost like I don't exist outside of school. I got to school do all my studying...then bring home all the homework and do it, hopefully learning something in the process. I really don't know whether all of this is worth it...i mean there are so many people that I know who didn't even finish highschool yet they make so much money from working in normal jobs. Yet I want to strive for success and become a forensics specialists and outwit everyone in my family.
Why do I feel so pressured to become smarter then they were? Why is it I feel the need to surpass them? Is it normal?
Sometimes it doesn't make sense...maybe I just don't want to wake up one day asking myself, 'what should i do today?' ...maybe I want to have something to do everyday and feel motivated to do something. Life just seems so tiresome that I'm not really motivated.
Motivate me, so I can get myself a damn life.
You know what?...i got a better idea.
I'll become a porn star...best job in the damn world.
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