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Sometimes when I couldn't
hold back my feelings anymore,
I would start crying or get very
scared but......

.......Whenever that happened,
I wanted to have only one
expression,to never let
anything else show..........

in order to hide my own
problems I shouldn't have
been a human like them
if only I have been a cyborg.

So I wouldn't be thought
of as a failure.......
so I could believe my
existence have some value......

And then I met him.......

.....At first I don't know how
to react,how to show my
feelings that I have for him
and I can't say the right words
to him....

I never thought that one
day he will be taken away
from me,how can I expect
to live myself after that?

I was too scared to show
what was really in my heart
that's why he send me those
feelings........

I never respond to them....

I don't want to forget him
because I really love him,
one time he said to me
"you know I've always
wondered.......why a girl
like you would want to leave
a guy like me?"

I figured just being near
him was enough.I took
for granted that I was the
closest to his heart......

"If something happened
to me I wonder who would
even tell you that I didn't
come back,you think I'm
crazy even thinking that."

That day he said it I just
gave him a vague smile.....

It's night time,even they should
be asleep after dark.I'm so
afraid,but if I where going to the
place where he is then I
would not be afraid.

So that i can see his gentle
face again,his warmth kiss
that I felt and the beautiful
eyes that I loved the most.

Someone says that part of him
was live inside of me.One thing
that I couldn't change was the
part of that I love him so much
even though whatever I do his
soul will never come back.

.......But still his always here in
my heart forever........