I feel happy right now... just explosive. I'm gonna be swingy for a while now I just know it. I need to write. I think writing to the internet is an obsession of mine. I just have to write as much as possible, express myself as much as I can through text or whatever. It's like... if I'm not talking to someone or drawing then I feel I need to talk about myself in some form. Oh the wonders of boredom. >.<
I just read most of a girlfriend magazine... it was interesting. I cannot belive that 'normal' girls actually care what shoes Nicole rithcie or Linday lohan are wearing. Like jeez who gives a crap. But then theres me being a hypocrite again... If I didnt want to face the horrors of girl mags I shouldnt bought it. I got it for the sealed section though.... >:3 Becuase i'm evil like that.
Today was yet another booooorrriiiinnnnngggggggggggg saturday. I wish I had more freedom with what I wanted to do. I wish I could simply go off to some new place. I feel like running away for a while... maybe this holidays I can go somewhere new. Instead of hagning around in my house and sitting on the internet all the time. Seriously my life is a sad one. If you can call it a life.
When I'm bored like this all these thoughts fill up my brain, like questioning myself for whatever reason. I like to go through every little section of my brain until I have thought everything I could possibly think. Then I usually just.... get angry and fall asleep or something.
I have been having some strange dreams latley... Last night my dreams were yet again based around the end of the world. It's a common theme latley... It;s wierd too. THe dream I had last night... I cant really remeber... but my mum was angry at me and she kept calling me on my mobile and I was at a rose garden and from what I can remeber it was in Richmond. It was this little room and the walls were a freakish navy blue and yellow on the outside. I cant remeber much but I know I was running away... from some kind of force like an army or something that was after me. It was kind of like some kind of game. I know there were three other people running with me but i'll be damned if I can remember who they are. I know that when I woke up I felt really anxious and worried. As if I dont feel like that enough when I'm awake!
Sigh I love ranting like this. IT's good to just be able to get it all out. I would write it down in a book... but i'm lazy... I find computer text neater and I'm faster at typing... I would say. Also theres the backspace button. Oh god I love this song. I would listen to it for hours if I could.
Oh god I feel tired =_=
If anyone wants to talk, please add me on AIM. I have no friends there yet X3 I love to chat. I'll do it until my mum kicks me off or until I'm so tired that my head cant hold itself up. ^^
hm.... They really have added actual fruit in chupa chups... The apple one really does taste like a highly sweet version of an apple *slapped for being random*
*faints* I think i'll sleep now.
Remeber to be happy everyone heart
