Maybe I should just list this all, instead of giving you a full-fledged rant.
-I have pneumonia.
-My older sister, who I've looked up to my entire life, is turning athiest.
-My twin sister, who used to be smart if cynical, has tried too hard to become outgoing and everyone hates her-to the point that she might get transferred to a different school.
-Said twin used to be my best friend in the entire world, who I stuck by and she stuck by me no matter who hated us, but when she started trying to get "up there", she ditched me and doesn't even realize why I hate her now.
-Because I don't start crying when she starts "spilling out her soul" to me, she calls me a b***h every hour, throws tantrums, hits all my weakest spots (not the least of which include "YOU'RE NOT HUMAN!" wink , mouths off to everyone in my family just because we're around, and constantly complains that she can't spend half our $$ every weekend like 'normal people' and blames it on being in an Asian family.
-Not a single one of my friends I can confide to. At all.
-My grades are dropping.
-My closest grandma, who took care of my whole family for the past 12 years, is getting knee surgery soon.
-My pet turtle is probably going to die from the cold.
Everyone I've ever looked up to is disappointing me, and I don't see any reason at all to hope.
Wow. This is the first time I've listed this anywhere besides my mind.
Because let's just put it this way: if I ever told anyone how I feel without being nagged for an hour, it means I'm literally on the verge of suicide.
-sabishii.tenshi- Community Member 
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