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yup i went job hunting yet again. it sucks not having a job..but what sucks more...being a college student without a job. it sucks awhole lot. i'm planning on applying at 5 different stores. and honestly i really need a job. i'm hoping that maybe...just maybe...i'll get a shot. and as for my lovely week of hell..yes..oxymoron-ish. it is surprisingly going well. i have choosen days where i can dedicate the whole day to doing that specific assignment. but as far as i'm concerned my schedule from...monday thru thursday is..well..full. i have to meet with so many people: two of my groups from different classes, study for an exam, work on a project, go to tutoring ( don't ask), work on a set of poems due tuesday, turn in a project on wednesday early in the morning, and revise a research paper for another one of my classes, OH! and finish a math project by midnight tuesday. it all has to be done THIS WEEK! this is truly the stress most college students deal with. why?...cause classes suck and this is the only way we can really pass them. most people in the end will say that it all paid off in the end...me honestly...yea it will pay off in the end. there has just been so much going on. the good thing is i started the project for my math class today and that i am about 3/4 of the way done with the first part. i only have to find the range and explain the graphs and make connections and such. however the second part is the difficult part and is the most time consuming. my teacher said that the project itself will take a person a week. he also said that about the first project, i finished the first project in 8 hours and i even got a 100% on it. this project on the other hand..is a little bit more difficult because there is more and more things to focus on. it's quite difficult. and i'm honestly..really really tired...but i know that it's going to pay off because..by the end of this week..on saturday and sunday...さくらまつり! or in other words..sakura matsuri!..or in english...cherry blossom festival! yup, the cherry blossom festival is coming to japantown, sf, cali! well..technically..it happened like this weekend...but i couldn't go cause..me and my friends couldn't go..so this weekend..i'm planning to go with my friends this weekend. and after working and studying for this week, i think i deserve a break from studying so hard and being WAYY too stressed out.. what i really need is some time to relax, let my body rest until the following monday when i have to present to my class with my group. until then...i'm focusing on homework, studying, school, and spending less and less time doing other fun stuff...which also reminds me..once i'm done with this week..on friday..i'm planning on getting a new phone! which is about time. cause..my current phone..well..is starting to go nuts..it delets my own pictures, videos, and ringtones. ( my crystal kay ringtones were gone..but my tvxq's were fine.) well...i really need to get some sleep. i have to get up at 7 in the morning and it's currently 1:41 am. hopefully i won't crash sometime during the week. cause from last week i'm definitely on a roll when it comes to lack of sleep..and i think i lost some weight. so..there's a plus. but i have to do so much reading, research, and calculating...this is by far the most amount of work i have done in the university. anyway, recently i have been talking..or rather writing about how i have been wanting to change my major for some time i just haven't necessarily choosen it yet. there's a lot of factors going into it...i'm still unsure, paper work is a pain in the a**..yes there is paper work involved..i wrote about how i'm going to be changing my major soon..very soon.. but now i'm reconsidering..i'm thinking about waiting until i get to fanime to make my final decision on my change in major. that's the thing...i'm THINKING ABOUT...those are the key words..i now know that my parents are definitely supporting me in my decision..my family on the other...still doesn't know about my change in major...my parents and myself are sure that we are definitely not telling any about my change in major..well..i definitely went on a long long tangent..i suppose...i feel like i need time to think about everything..but i feel like the longer i need to reflect on my decision..the longer i'm going to get nowhere..i have to start working hard and keep reminding myself that there is a reason why i'm interested in that major..i want to make a change..i want to start a business that is worth being noticed..and who knows it might turn into something big..optimism at its highest..and...it wouldn't hurt...there is always that thought...what if i did..what if i didn't...who knows...and i do live by a motto..."EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. GOOD OR BAD..IT HAPPENS." oh and there is another motto.."EVERYONE'S LIFE ISN'T PERFECT, SOME PEOPLE HAVE MORE BUMPS IN THE ROAD AND OTHERS HAVE LESS BUMPS IN THEIR ROADS. EVERYONE HAS THE SAME PATH, JUST HAVE DIFFERENT FORKS IN THE ROADS AT DIFFERENT TIMES." somehow..that second one makes me feel more relaxed and happier...well..it's almost 2..and king of the hill is almost over..night..

later<3

krissy<3