Well since I'm on gaia avoiding my history homework, a journal entry must be written! It has been a long time after all and this would give me a chance to just let stuff out. Oh and the strong wind outside is howling at me(scary scary scary!!!)
Tolerance. . . Yeah it's a great word isn't it? Just how much can you tolerate before you eventually break apart? For me, I can tolerate a lot but lately I feel like I want to just break down and die. Waking up early, lack of sleep, homework, people that are douche bags, friends, etc. It's all starting to become too much for me.
Being the lazy person I am I yearn to be able to wake up in bed and just stare at the ceiling while I think of someone and listen to music. I just can't do that because I am still in school. Even when I get out of school though I'm going to be working so I guess laying down in bed, curled in a ball even, just isn't possible for me while I'm in school.
Skipping school is out of the question and does anyone even read my journal anymore? Better yet, is anyone even interested on what I have to say? Ugh, whatever anyways. Dying right now doesn't seem so bad, I'll be missed but regret wise. . . Never mind, I regret too much to go now. But I'm just so damn lazy!!!
Maybe just maybe if I wasn't so la- No not even lazy. If I just had some more sleep then maybe I'd feel better but nope, I got A period p.e. just great. And to think that I have one more semester of it.
Well damn it all, this just turned into a rant. Hmm. . . On a lighter note, I'm doing fine in school. Except for history, I keep forgetting to do homework in class(shame on me). It be ea single life for me and I'm still walking everywhere and getting a ride when I have a friend that can give me a ride.
Oooo I finally got the romance that I wanted to write started but it's not even the same romance story from before. Oh well what can you do other than start from scratch and make a whole new thing. Oh, this is a joint story by the way so there are two authors, throwing in ideas, working on a single story. It's coming out great actually. Pretty boring for part one but it going to start getting interesting once me and my comrade gets part 2 started.
Wow this is a lot of typing. . . Time to end it here then. Maybe I'll write in this journal more often.
Rubytan · Wed May 06, 2009 @ 08:01am · 2 Comments |