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have u ever felt like somthings wrong but u never know until u go to the place itself sometimes i feel very weird when i get that feeling not in someways what some people might think of but weird as a mental way i cant really understand it but its really strange for me most of the time when i feel it and see it i get jealous because of it like i said i dont understand why it just happenes "plz god can u tell me whats wrong with my emotions" i tell myelf. sometimes i wonder what the hell what i go through in my life that makes me wonder about my feelings can it be im just bored? or that i need somthing more then techology itselfs yea i go out see my friends and do things with them but everytime i see cuples together having there own fun i get like this small feeling in my heart its not pain and it doesnt hurt but i feel it the only person i can ask is god himself but i dont think i can unless he was in my face or in my dreams preying sure is another way to get to him but i just want to find the answer myself without anyones help sure i can understand people care about me but for once in my life i would like to do somthing and answer somthing for myself. if i can only do that without getting busted for the wrong things then ill be happy i would finally do somthing i always wanted to do idk what i always wanted to do because i havent thought of it yet but one day hopefully and soon ill be able to do somthing i want and maybe from there ill be able to find the answer i was looking for......