For a while now, I have been wondering if the person I feel closest to is completely honest with me. I don't know why he wouldn't be, but just recently, I have begun to believe that he is in fact hiding something from me.
This person knows that I am madly in love with him. I have been since the day I met him. A few months ago, I asked him out. I know that I can be good for him. That I can give him what he needs. I know him better than a lot of people. well, at least I think I do. And he and I both know that I would never do anything in the world to hurt him. He told me that he would think about it.
Well, it has been months, and still I have recieved no response on the matter. This wouldn't bother me except, I think that he may be hiding the fact that he loves someoe else.
I have always supported him through all of his relationships, and it never bothered me that he wasn't in love with me. But it's different this time. All the other times, he didn't have to make a decision on me. This time, he does.
It hurts to think that he would rather have someone else. And it hurts even more to think that he has moved on, but is allowing me to make a fool of myself everyday. That he would lie to me, and let me go on embarassing myself.
I wish with all my heart that he would tell me he loved me. That he would say it, and mean it the way I do. I know I can't force him, but I wish it were so.
Just tell me you've chosen someone else! Stop making me live a lie!! Stop letting me embarass myself!!! Stop lying to me!! Stop making me feel like im this huge part of your life that I am obviously not. Stop hurting me...
Sometimes I Wonder Where All The Honesty Went.........
 Trae Blackhawk · Tue May 26, 2009 @ 04:44am · 1 Comments |
