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right after i got home from work, (still feels weird saying that.) i was talking with my mom about work. at one point the conversation lead to whether working at a place you hate but the pay is good. or working in a place you love and the pay is a bit lower. me personally, i would have choosen the second option, working at a place that i have at least some knowledge and would love working there. where in my current job i don't know a whole lot about the things the company but the pay is good. higher than my last job.

for awhile i'm actually thinking...was it wise to accept this job? maybe..just maybe if i had applied somewhere else, even if the pay wasn't as good. as long as i had some knowledge i would be fine and excited to go to work. but i work at a place that is totally out of my element. i finished my training today and i started working on my own, no more guidance from other experienced employees. i was completely on my own. and today was a rocky start, the first customer i talked with after dealing with that customer...i realized...i looked like i had never done any training what so ever. i felt so stupid then. i was actually fairly nervous considering that everything i had learned just managed to blank out of my head in a matter of er...minutes.

i should write in my journal more often, this is definitely a way for me to relieve some stress and feel better about myself. i'm not sure why but i've just been feeling really down-y lately. but after writing in the journal and watching g no arashi (where nino tries to be a host at a host club. great episode btw. nothing like nino trying to look like a host. the wig worked), having some coffee and watching whose line is it anyway. i feel so much better. and i'm actually looking forward to working tomorrow. i also did find out that another coworker of mine (he trained with me) also messed up the first time he actually worked on his own. so i didn't feel so bad. i feel a whole lot better. 8 hours of work..i should pack my lunch. oh yea..for some reason i don't feel weird about eating out of my hello kitty lunch box container. heh..whatever. night!

later<3

krissy<3