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Useless Thoughts & Bits of Dandruff it's funny, i had over 70 friends, and then i cleared out my friendslist to only include my true friends -- no mules, no people i met once and never talked to again, no...yeah, you get the point. i have 8 friends now, and two have left gaia. four are friends from real life. one is myself. that leaves me one friend, and i have the feeling i'm not even really considered a friend of hers. we talk alot, but i never really feel actually... that warm fuzzy feeling you get talking to a friend. i mean, what's the point? even online, even at my favorite place in the world, i have no social skills. i can't even make friends in a place where looks and social standing don't matter. i can't figure it out. i know someone who falls in love too easily. s/he has a bunch of online friends; and she actually counts them friends. she cares for them. why can't i fall in love like that? why can't i fall in love at all? who am i? and i thought about it, i don't even know who i am. i don't have a personality. i'm bits and fragments of people i've met, people i admire. everything i can truly count as one of my own traits is nothing i'm proud of. i'm a flake. i'm a dork. i'm a pushy b*h. i'm annoying and most people hate me. and my two fears, which i prefer to keep quiet. why can't i be nice? why can't i be lovable? why can't i be cute? why can't i make friends? why can't i be someone**?? just useless thoughts and bits of dandruff.

Posted by: yaccck Tue Dec 27, 2005 @ 08:45am

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Commented on: Tue Dec 27, 2005 @ 07:48pm


	Mmm, but you are someone! :] I remember when you PMed me rather randomly and I was kinda like wtf o.o;; because I'm like that. But you turned out to be fabulously nice! :> Perhaps you just need time to like discover yourself? I know it took me a while. o____x;;; But it's a good feeling once you do. :] You can always be someone yourself and people will either like you or they won't and it will be their loss not yours. :]!

Commented on: Tue Dec 27, 2005 @ 09:15pm


	don't be silly. i don't have social skills either. believe me. that has to be the department i'm lacking in the most. [you really don't seem like you don't have social skills though, you know?] but it is alright that you don't know exactly who you are yet, right? you're still figuring stuff out and all that. understandable. but you are someone. you have a fun personality. i like you. you seem nice to me, and i know that doesn't count for much. haven't seen you being pushy or annoying. you're my friend, right? :3

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Commented on: Wed Dec 28, 2005 @ 07:30am


	Gabby...you are someone, don't you see that? You are. You're deffinetley not a flake, though. =/ But even if your personality consists of little fragments of things you picked up from other people, that's you, now. It makes you someone. And no matter what happens, you'll always BE someone, at least to me. And you can love someone. And you will eventually. Just because it hasn't happened yet, doesn't mean it won't, at all... You're still young, you've got growing up to do. :] <3 And i'm not saying that as if i'm SO much older then you. 2 years isn't a lot. And i might just be mature....i might of just gotten mature at a younger age. Ya know? And everyone has social skills. They just don't know how to use them. And you'll learn, in time. Don't even think about the bad parts about yourself, because i honestly can think of millions more that are amazing. And even if you dont' see it,...i always will. I'm here if you need to talk. You're my best friend. I'll always be here for you.

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