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What we had was TRUE love, it's something that's not easy to come by these days, but now it's just a thing in the past. I ended it, it was my decision. I don't know if it was the wrong or right thing to do, but I gave up on it, I'm sorry, I really am.
He was the perfect guy for me, but he just couldn't sacrifice ANY of his time for me. The best he could do was once a month, and that just wasn't good enough for me.

What I want is for someone to be with me all the time, to hold me in their arms and let me know everything's going to be okay. I want a true love that is real, where he would sacrifice everything just for me, like I would for him.
But I doubt that that will ever happen....

It's feels so weird, so different now. My life is still going on, but just without him. I know I'm never gona find another like him, that's the part I can't let go of, but there's nothing I can do.
I need a good friend now, someone I can always rely on, and count on to get through each day. I always relied on him to help me through everything, but I can't any more.
What am I going to do?
What am I supposed to do?

Edit: After having a chat with Kiki, my bestest buddy in the whole wide world, I've decided to ignore this and stick with him for a while longer as long as he keeps up with his promise of making time for me. He's fine with whatever decision I make, I just don't wana leave the true love state we had.