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so yesterday i was really happy! i got off work at 12, i got a new camera and i was just enjoying the rest of the day. i woke up this morning to the sound of my mom...yelling. she told me that there was a message from one of my managers at work saying that i had work this morning at 5:45 am. i was confused and obviously tired. i had work at 5:45 am yesterday. and i always put my schedule on my phone. what better place to put my schedule.

now today i have work at 12, so i have to leave at like 11:40 to get to work. but the thing is i called my other manager back and talked to him for a bit. i told him that i didn't have work till 12 today. but he said on the floor schedules that i was scheduled at 545 to 245. i thought wth? so he asked me if i saw the schedule near the lunch room and i said yes and that i saw my schedule and the time i was supposed to come in today. my other manager called me twice. i thought omg did i read my schedule wrong? and then i thought, that can't be because once i see the new schedules i put it on my phone. i'm still reconsidering whether or not i should stay with the current job i have. i keep telling myself. keep going until next payday, it's just...i dunno how long i can take working here. a family friend of mine who used to work there told me that there were other employees who were in the same position as me but they quit after a month. it'll be a month for me next week. i started working on the 13th and it'll be one month on 8/13. 5 more days of work, not including today. i'm starting to really reconsider why i work there. oh yea, i was desperate for work. so this raises a topic from a previous entry. the way i see it. i don't think i'm going to last before school starts. i'm goint to get paid on 8/14. i think i'll end it there.

i want to quite but my mom is really persistant on me staying for a couple more months. what reason do i have for not wanting to stay? i feel very uncomfortable working there. i go to work depressed but i leave happy. i go on break or lunch i'm happy i go back to work i'm depressed or really pissed off for some reason. i have said this earlier but i'll say it again. those who know me personally will know that i do not belong in the place where i am currently working at.

i think i’m going to try and stay until the 14th, when I get paid and then just end it there. I’ve always complained about work to my family and friends always calling them when I’m on break or lunch. But never, I mean NEVER have I wanted to cry so much in my life. I wanted to cry during work because the whole time I was working I felt like I was messing up so much and that they really could let us go any time we wanted. Interacting with the employees is kinda fun. But some of the other employees are a bit strange and are a little too close to one another. I’ll leave it at that. The only thing is that I want to end working there, I’m just not sure how. To be honest I’ve never quit a job before, I keep thinking that if you quit a job it’ll look bad on your resume or that it’ll be hard to find another job after.

I have three days off this week, next week I have four days. I’m starting to think that they won’t keep me for a longer period of time. But, I’m going to try and find another job before I actually qu-..err..end my career at that company. I’m going to try and looking tomorrow. Until then..i hope..i can figure something out.

My mom is convinced that only 3 months is something I can handle considering it’s not even that long. But…90 days or roughly 3 months. No way in hell.. But no..i can’t..i just can’t tolerate working there. For me to fulfill my 90 day contract, I will have to stay and work from 7/13 until 10/13. exactly 90 DAYS. I’m coming up on my first month in about 11 days.

I’m going on another job hunt before the fall semester starts! I promise. I mean everything I had wished or promised to accomplish..actually happened this summer so I think I got it. I have to start getting ready for work. Oh fun.

later<3

krissy<3